Tabassum S. Chowdhury

Hello beautiful soul! Thank you so much for visiting and taking the time to read my bio. I'll cut straight to the chase.

 

I started my journey towards the healing arts over a decade ago as a process to begin my own healing. I had suffered from depression and anxiety for decades and found western medicine modalities to be lacking. I found that cognitive behavioral therapy and medication simply put a temporary band aid on; and eventually the band aid would fall off and the wound would be aggravated again, and sometimes even fester. I had to get to the bottom of what was causing this emotional wound if it was ever going to stop recurring. I had friends, hobbies, did well in school and "life" as outsiders would see it. So why was I sad and anxious, all the time?

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During my most recent dance with depression, a good friend of mine asked me a question: "how can someone that appears to have it all, the life many people want, be so quick to want to die?" As I reflected, it all had to do with a fundamental wound that could not be healed by the environment I was capable of creating around me. 

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This wound, I believe, is something common to everyone's core: we all want one thing and that is to feel that we are supported and loved unconditionally, as we are, regardless of everything else. We all want to know that someone has our back. And up until recently, I never knew how to feel that...and the search for that is what started my spiritual journey.​

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So, over a decade ago, as I sat awake unable to sleep, I binge watched a show set in the Amazon (The River on ABC if any of you remember it), and my soul just knew I had to go to the Peruvian Amazon. And I booked a trip right then. And so my journey began. ​

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I experimented with plant medicine and various Amazonian ceremonies. I completed the Inca Trail and I returned back a new person. I began traveling the world to learn first hand about different modalities: Thailand, India, Bangladesh, Kenya, Rwanda, Uganda, Brazil, Costa Rica, Fiji, Hawaii, Mexico, Israel, Jordan, the list continues...

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I graduated from the Sacred Earth Medicine Path by Shamans Journey, LLC, and became a full mesa carrier and continued on to begin assisting others on the same path. I became Reiki Level 4 (Master level) certified by Bear and Crow, LLC. Continued my journey instructing Muay Thai and Krav Maga and yoga, and eventually became called to channel divination readings. My treatments now incorporate many techniques as my intuition hones in more.

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For many years, I didn't believe in the magic of the universe. And then it dawned on me, I feel suicidal when I feel like I have lost connection to the support of the universe. I'm a "type A" science person who found spirituality when my life fell apart. And years ago, if someone had told me that the universe has my back and is guiding my path, I would have called them out on spewing horse s**t. 

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I'm not a psychologist. I'm not a doctor. Who I am is an engineer that found spirituality while searching for a reason to live after multiple suicide attempts. There's no magic pill that makes your problems go away. But the tools that I have accumulated over the years have taught me to tap in to the unconditional love and support of the universe and feel it in my bones. And that is what my services are tailored to: using techniques I have learned to find my connection to spirit with the hope that they will enable you to connect to spirit. My services are methods to assist you to feel the unconditional love we all seek, and to enable you to let that unconditional love be your guiding light. 

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This is not to say that the dance with depression does not continue. Even recently, I had my low points, and I still regularly see a psychologist, spiritual advisors, and friends that are more family than anything else. It's like waves in the ocean: they don't stop but you can learn to float, swim, and eventually surf. And I'm excited to share these tools with you! Let's live life in gratitude, ceremony, and joy amidst the pain :)

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Love, light, and gratitude.

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